Tigerlily2222

I just

I just

Why why why why why

nothing ever goes right for me

sorry for yet another rant journal. I can't help it. I worked so hard on my character but because i couldn't make a headshot it got declined. . .and now I've got to wait who knows how long until I can enter her in again. And I know it's all my fault. It's always my fault. Even at home, everything is always because of me. I can't take this. I work so hard but for no payoff whatsoever. I don't get it. I don't. I can't even think right now. Wtf. 

I totally understand why I was declined, but. . .I'm just so frustrated at myself. I told them that I physically couldn't finish it, but they ignored me. Whatever. Either way, I still know it's all my fault. I'm too lazy. I can't do anything right. 

All my drawings suck balls. All I want is some friends and to be accepted. Online, that's supposed to be easy. Apparently not for me. I spent hours upon hours on that app. . .all to get declined because of my f*cking laziness. Good job, Kelly, good effing job. 

Every time I try to pull myself out of the hole it's like I get pushed straight back in, only to get stuck a little bit deeper. I don't know how much longer I can take this. And plus, I'm supposed to go back to school on Monday after being out for four months...and I don't think I can handle that. It's hard to explain, but with mono, everything is 1000x harder, and after you're done you HAVE to go to sleep. It's not even like, tired, it's like, super sleepy. If that makes sense. 

I'm probably making no sense whatsoever

But seriously, after watching a freaking movie I need to rest. So, the fact that everyone thinks I can just go back to school and work my ass off for seven hours straight when I can barely stay awake throughout the day as it is. . .no. Just no. 

I'm so stressed out. I just want to be accepted. I want someone to talk to and talk back to me. 

Is that too much to ask?

-Kelly

Snake
[ ] Physically, you are very flexible. 
[x] You like to have power or take control in most situations.
[/] You are a smooth talker.
[ ] You lie a lot.
[ ] You can stretch your mouth very wide.
[ ] You intimidate most people.
[/] Most people don't like you. 
[x] Your favorite color is green.
[x] You don't have very many friends.
[ ] You have more enemies than friends.
[ ] You are cunning.
[/] You like to be alone.
Total: 4.5

Bird
[/] You like to feel as free as possible.
[ ] Most people really like you.
[/] You are talkative.
[x] You feed the ducks when you go to the park.
[x] You have been on an airplane before.
[ ] You would like to fly someday, airplane or not.
[ ] Your favorite color is blue.
[ ] People say that you have a great sense of direction in life. 
[ ] You have a lot of friends.
[x] You have picked up a bird's feather and kept it for a long time.
[ ] You like to be part of the crowd.
[ ] Your vision is 20x20 or better.
Total: 4


Cat
[/] You are very independent.
[x] You like to go out on adventures.
[x] You're a cuddle-bug.
[x] You aren't afraid of mice.
[x] You have had a pet cat(s). 
[x] You have had a pet fish.  
[ ] You have cheated death 1 or more times.
[x] You have been in a car accident.
[ ] Some people say that you're graceful.
[/] You are very quiet. 
[ ] You don't like the rain.
[ ] Your favorite color is purple.
Total: 7

Dog
[x] You are very loyal. 
[ ] You are a very social person.
[ ] You have many friends.
[x] You would die for someone you love.
[ ] You love to play sports.
[x] You have had a pet dog.
[ ] Your favorite color is yellow.
[/] You find joy in helping others.
[/] Your favorite food is meat.
[x] You have guided/helped someone on an outing before and did not mind.
[x] You would protect your friends and family no matter what.
[/] You may drool from time to time. 
Total: 6.5

Horse
[ ] You are a very physically-fit person. 
[ ] You like to go out on runs/jogs. 
[ ] You are a vegetarian.
[ ] Strength is your best quality.
[ ] People can depend on you for things.
[ ] Your favorite color is red.
[ ] You like sports cars.
[ ] You think that a lowered suspension and better handling is the way to go.
[ ] Your job requires you to lift 50 pounds or more.
[ ] Someone has asked you before, "Why the long face?"
[x] You like sweets.
[ ] Apples are your preferred fruit. 
Total: 1


Wolf
[x] You live with your family.
[x] You get along with your family.
[ ] You like to teach others.
[ ] You have baby-sat before. 
[ ] Your favorite color is gray.
[ ] People consider you to be a leader. 
[x] You would protect family and friends if threatened.
[ ] You like to sing.
[ ] The nightlife is for you.
[ ] You like to go to raves or dances.
[ ] Being social is a big part of your personality.
[ ] You look up to someone and want to be like them someday. 
Total: 3

Lion
[ ] You are popular.
[ ] People look up to you. 
[ ] You hold a powerful presence.
[ ] You have been in a fight before.
[ ] Your favorite color is gold.
[ ] Someone has looked up to you before. 
[ ] You sleep more than 12 hours a day. 
[ ] You are a morning person.
[ ] You think you have the best hair.  
[ ] You look intimidating to others.
[x] People don't bully you. 
[x] You love the rain.
Total: 2

Bear
[ ] People think that you are very intimidating.
[x] You are not afraid of bees.  
[ ] Your favorite color is brown.
[ ] You like to go out for hikes in the forest/nature trails.
[x] You have brothers/sisters. 
[ ] You like to go fishing.
[ ] You like to swim.
[ ] You like to go hunting. 
[ ] You adapt really well to extreme situations.
[x] You are very strong.
[ ] You don't like a big crowd.
[ ] You are fearless of others. 
Total: 3


Pig
[ ] You like to eat.
[ ] Your favorite color is pink.
[x] You are very intelligent, or so you've been told.
[x] You are smarter than a dog.
[ ] You are not a picky eater.
[x] You have sensitive skin.
[ ] You like mud baths/facials.
[ ] You like to be pampered.
[ ] You depend on others a lot. 
[x] You aren't the most active person.
[ ] You love chocolate.
[x] You're easily angered.
Total: 5.5

Elephant
[ ]You are tall.
[ ] You eat a lot. 
[ ] You have a great memory. 
[ ] Your favorite color is silver.
[x] You wear glasses/contacts.
[x] You like to travel.
[ ] You love to swim.
[x] People don't bully you.
[x] You carry something special with you everywhere you go. 
[ ] You are a vegetarian.
[ ] You would rather avoid a fight.
[ ] You have big ears.
Total: 4


Fox
[x] You like to make jokes.
[ ] You would like to become a comedian some day. 
[x] You have pranked someone before.
[/] You have a lot of friends. (a rather large amount)
[ ] Your favorite color is orange.
[ ] You believe in true love.
[x] You love someone/have a crush on someone. 
[ ] People say you're sexy.
[ ] You don't want to die or live life alone.
[ ] You would like to have children someday/You have children.
[x] You like to help your friends and family.
[/] You live in the suburbs.
Total: 5

It's called PokeWarts

It's basically a pokemon harry potter crossover

Spread the word! I need help! 

All are welcome!

Help! I want to join some! I've tried to join some, but all the ones are either closed atm or are still considering. I need my pokemon fix! I would prefer an RP where the pokemon are humanoid, (not a pokemon that can turn into a human) but yeah. 

I'm craving it! I almost want to start my own ;m;